It's Coming

Fast and fuious, I am on my way to turning 40- next month. Turning 30 hit me hard - I was in the middle of divorce, a single mother, no longer young (yeah, I know, but at that time, I did not feel young) and facing the daunting possibility of what my new life would be. I was just realizing the challenges of parenting alone. It was not a good time for me. Now here I am - facing 40. This decade shows those possiblitlies from my 30's blossoming. I am a newly wed (Mike and I married a year and a half ago), living in a new community, my babies (they were just 1 and 3) from my 30th birthday are becoming young men, whom I enjoy getting to know. I find 40 bringing me a new confidence in myself, and my husband brings me great happiness. My work life is so totally different now from what I ever thought it would be. I loved my time I just spent as a receptionist, and one of the part time tax ladies I work with is keeping me in mind for when she needs another receptionist at her full time job, in the next town over. My life experience is showing (some call that wrinkles and gray hair), and I no longer have the energy of youth. But I am approaching 40 with optimism. I have learned a lot in 10 years - patience, tolerance, compassion. Maybe I had to go through all I did to learn to put aside the selfishness and arrogance of youth.